In August 08 my doctor suggested I should try to taper off my medication. I've been taking Zoloft for several years to treat depression and mild anxiety. I very slowly started going down in dosage. 6 months later is was down to 50 mg a day from 200, but I was a wreck. It was the worst Christmas ever. I was crying, sleeping, avoiding everything and everyone. I couldn't eat, I lost 10 pounds in about 2 weeks. I knew I wasn't doing well so decided to go back up in dosage until I felt normal again. Slowly I went back to 150 mg a day, where I have been since February 09.
Getting back into a depression wasn't all bad I guess. It helped me see that I wasn't happy. I always thought I was. I always thought I loved my husband and our life. Turns out I didn't.
In May 09, I told my husband I wanted a divorce. It hit him out of nowhere. He had no idea it was coming. He begged me to go to counselling and try to make things work. I didn't want any part of it. I was done.